"do not worry baby.."

its been quite a long time ago since i actually using water colors. usually i'm comfortable using water colours for scenery paintings. plants and trees.. since i got my water colors back from my sister for after so long (yay!)  i should use try water colors again by painting portraits. 

as i was used to acrylic now.. to be frank i never felt so overwhelming for a colour medium. hahah . few trials and few tutorial videos. i realize my mistakes was i didnt plan well before i paint.. as acrylic painting can be covered up by another layers of paint. so i dont worry that much. but as for water colour.. hah! the more u cover the more mistake u will make hahaaah. and another thing is i always forget to wait for the water colours to dry before proceed to the next layers 

anyway that's the "satisfying" portrait to date. for now i really wanna master well the white areas.

ya i have much more to improve. 

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miracle of surrender

“Don’t look for peace. Don’t look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace. Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender.”


p/s: i really have the urge to do bad decision and regret later.. like bleach my whole head to platinum blonde. hahaha 

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fearless

this is the biggest canvas painting(3frx3ft) i ever did. which took lots of my time and patience; not to lie, there is time i really wanna gave up this painting, but i cant because canvas are expensive hahahaah. mayb i should learn how to diy it someday xD but i'm glad that i completed it, and i'm quite please with the outcome. 

anyway this was inspired by Monsopiad a Kadazandusun headhunter in Sabah. he is famous for being a fearless warrior, protect his village in dangers. but he was carried away by his glorious moments, he started to pick up deadly battles with innocent villagers, thus villagers get scared of him and leave them no choice but to get rid of him, he past away at the end. despite all that. everybody still respect him for his heroic and fearless spirit. 

As for my painting  and i draw a female villager instead a man to add softness for balancing. i want to portray strong, tough yet calm and grace at the same time with the feather headdress and the flow of her hair. in conclusion i believe in life, we need to live with grace yet stabilized with firmness to survive. 

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