“When you are washing the dishes, washing the dishes must be the most important thing in your life. Just as when you are drinking tea, drinking tea must be the most important thing in your life. Drink your tea slowly and reverently, as if it is the axis on which the whole world revolves—slowly, evenly, without rushing toward the future. Live the actual moment. Only this actual moment is life.”

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random gifs

rite now imma cranky miserable old lady. head went rumble jumble again after i tot everything is gonna be A ok. wondering why i have to care so much anway. its mentally and emotionally exhausting. but meh, suck it up. life goes on anyway. dont ask but for now all i wanted to do rite now is hide under my blanket and eat oatmeal or sandwiches. straight forward much? i have no mood to be poetically or artistically expressing myself now

but one thing i "like" about myself is i easily get entertained hahaha. anyway here are some of my favorite gifs for now, who know this might cheer anyone of you, who might having a bad day (dayssss) like me? hahahhahaahh

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the seer

"The future is a puzzle. With many pieces to be sorted. In time, you'll learn to separate what can be from what will be.. but knowing your future would not have made a difference, you would still be powerless to ecape your fate"

I was trying colour markers as drawing mamaterial initially, but the outcome is kinda disappointing. i havent know how to control the strokes of the pens yet.  So i use my my ol' friend.. soft pastels and colour pencils to do some touch up; its turns out much better now. hahaha.

The Seer is a character from the drama "once upon a time". her role might be a minor one, but i think she is the most important characters in the drama. She might look scary at first but I think she is the most interesting character, i like how she thinks and describe about her gifted ability and maybe i like her hair hahahahah!!

i like this drama, eventhough i died alittle in every episode i watched. 

i think i should watch some cute animals videos now. 

 

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roar

 “Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go.

 Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your well being a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful — you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.”

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blue eyed

i always wanted to get close to a tiger, give them a big big hug even better. hahah. despite they might bite our head off but they are actually very adorable (or maybe is me having soft spot for big fury animals lol) and i love their big cushy cushion paws. 

but i got the chance to cuddle and play with a white tiger cub. This is waaaay beyond my dream hahahah..for me tiger is like a combination of dog and cat. Tiger might have features similar to a cat. but the way they walk and their fur/skin quite similar with a large breed dog. is like best of both world. hahaha

  

as white tiger is kinda famous and highly demand, instead of natural birth; now genetic experiment which involve modified DNA to get the "perfect blue eyed white tiger" which cause some disfigured and abnormal growth in some of those unlucky white tiger; which is kinda sad.

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paper time!

current craving for paper cuttings and painting hahahha. i use acrylic paints, soft pastels and marker pens for this piece. oh ya, not forget bits n pieces of papers i kept . i like to keep left over papers , tissue roll, beautiful wrappers n some other stuffs; you never know when u might need it. just incase u dont know, imma type of "use-whatever-there-is" kind of person hahaha. usually random i have inspires me what to do instead think of what to do and search for material later. 

so i cant deny i'm kind of a rubbish collector hahah. but dont fear, i have a box for it. is like a wonder box; box of everything. hahah 

by the way, this is a map i create; is not any typical tourist kind of map but my version of map featuring places i like and usually go. sandakan is quite a big place, usually occupied with plantation and forest, because of that It has another name call "nature city", which also lead to "always no electricity". so is not big deal if happens 5 hours (or even longer) blackout, we kinda use to it.

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