"do not worry baby.."

its been quite a long time ago since i actually using water colors. usually i'm comfortable using water colours for scenery paintings. plants and trees.. since i got my water colors back from my sister for after so long (yay!)  i should use try water colors again by painting portraits. 

as i was used to acrylic now.. to be frank i never felt so overwhelming for a colour medium. hahah . few trials and few tutorial videos. i realize my mistakes was i didnt plan well before i paint.. as acrylic painting can be covered up by another layers of paint. so i dont worry that much. but as for water colour.. hah! the more u cover the more mistake u will make hahaaah. and another thing is i always forget to wait for the water colours to dry before proceed to the next layers 

anyway that's the "satisfying" portrait to date. for now i really wanna master well the white areas.

ya i have much more to improve. 

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miracle of surrender

“Don’t look for peace. Don’t look for any other state than the one you are in now; otherwise, you will set up inner conflict and unconscious resistance. Forgive yourself for not being at peace. The moment you completely accept your non-peace, your non-peace becomes transmuted into peace. Anything you accept fully will get you there, will take you into peace. This is the miracle of surrender.”


p/s: i really have the urge to do bad decision and regret later.. like bleach my whole head to platinum blonde. hahaha 

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fearless

this is the biggest canvas painting(3frx3ft) i ever did. which took lots of my time and patience; not to lie, there is time i really wanna gave up this painting, but i cant because canvas are expensive hahahaah. mayb i should learn how to diy it someday xD but i'm glad that i completed it, and i'm quite please with the outcome. 

anyway this was inspired by Monsopiad a Kadazandusun headhunter in Sabah. he is famous for being a fearless warrior, protect his village in dangers. but he was carried away by his glorious moments, he started to pick up deadly battles with innocent villagers, thus villagers get scared of him and leave them no choice but to get rid of him, he past away at the end. despite all that. everybody still respect him for his heroic and fearless spirit. 

As for my painting  and i draw a female villager instead a man to add softness for balancing. i want to portray strong, tough yet calm and grace at the same time with the feather headdress and the flow of her hair. in conclusion i believe in life, we need to live with grace yet stabilized with firmness to survive. 

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weird

“Everybody’s born with some different thing at the core of their existence. And that thing, whatever it is, becomes like a heat source that runs each person from the inside. I have one too, of course. Like everybody else. But sometimes it gets out of hand. It swells or shrinks inside me, and it shakes me up. What I’d really like to do is find a way to communicate that feeling to another person. But I can’t seem to do it. They just don’t get it. Of course, the problem could be that I’m not explaining it very well, but I think it’s because they’re not listening very well. They pretend to be listening, but they’re not, really. So I get worked up sometimes, and I do some crazy things.”

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this is the weird girl from the movie, "frankenweenie'. besides she is my fav character who i wanted to draw, i also wanted to explore new style and color (especially for the face) which i'm excited about.

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wall painting!

This is my latest wall painting i did last week for a Chinese restaurant! its quite an achievement as the owner of the restaurant is someone whom i dont know, if u know me, i'm afraid of strangers hahaha. my mom even ask me to think twice to go as the restaurant was located somewhere i'm not familiar with. 

but hey, i should start somewhere rite? i cant just stay in my comfort zone. so i went for it anyway. its actually something when u meet someone who actually appreciated your artwork. i met her one that day, and she is nice hahah.  

The owner want something simple yet attractive and she want a tree! haha. so i came up a garden-y concept for her with bright colors to make the place homey too. i pull my horses as i might turn it into a kindergarten haahah. 

this is some small little things i painted . they focus more on chicken dishes; that explain the little chickens running around. 

my favorite part will be the wishing tree.. customers can stick comments, wishes or even photograph on the tree! which means as times goes by. the tree will grow more leaves! 

this was a great and fun experience! i was honored and very grateful to have this opportunity. hope there's more walls for me to conquer haahahahah 

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Happy Wesak day

"All things appear and disappear 

because of the concurrence of causes and conditions. 

Nothing ever exists entirely alone; 

everything is in relation to everything else."

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life

"Life is weird. It will give days when it takes you two days to get out of bed. It will replace your shadow with the ghosts of who you use to be, and they will follow you around, whispering the past into your ear. It might even throw in a dark cloud on a sunny day that will turn everything upside, just for good measure. Sometimes, it will lead you down the wrong path that will require you to trek through storms to get back to the right one. It will abandon you with your thoughts that tell you that the monster doesn’t live under the bed, instead, it lives in the mirror. 

Life will blow soft winds through your hair and give you a chance to hear the leaves rustle. Life will give you great friends, loving family; or even a car, some good company and a long road, it will scatter the stars across the dark, blue sky and give you something to believe in. It will also give you books and music, words written by strangers so that you know that you’re never truly alone. Every day it will give you a different sunrise and a different sunset, and a chance for you to witness the beauty of it all. Life will give you experience, a lot of it, and you will learn and grow and bloom. It will give you a hundred reasons to go, but a thousand reasons to live.”

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